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Red Rose
In this section, I want to focus on love and romance, tow very important topics to me. I understand why the red rose is used to represent romance (apart from also representing hardship, (ex: the rose that grew through the concrete). The flower itself is very attractive and seductive to look it, while it's bright red color represents warmth and love, to me at least.
My Next Vice
I'm grateful for all of the romantic encounters I've had, good and bad ones, because more and more I'm learning the type of love I want. In past romantic relationships, I've been given companionship, respect, delicacy, attention, and care. I don't know who I am destined to spend the rest of my life with, but I do know what love I want to share with them. I want healthy love. I want to be best friends with my partner and feel butterflies in my stomach from the time I meet them, until it's the last time we look at each other. I want long, engaging conversation that'll help us get closer to one another, and understand each other's boundaries. I want to be proud to be with my partner, and I want my partner to be proud to be with me. Of course, I want amazing sex with my partner. I want us to go on adventures, small and large, that'll make our bond grow even more. I want laughter. I want mutual support. But what it all boils down to, is as my friend described it, I want a love where even when the world is at its end and everything seems lost, I can still look to my partner and smile because at least we're still together.
A Better Lover
I want to be a better lover, so I can understand and notice when my partner is showing me love. As hopeless of a romantic as I am, I'm not as great of a lover as I'd like to be. I'm a very independent person which causes me to distance myself in a weird way with my partner. Sometimes I won't notice their affection, and appreciate it in time because I'm too stuck in my own head. I've come to realize that relationships require a similar maturity that having a child requires. You gotta learn to be patient, supportive, and understanding at times (of course, there's exceptions to this because some people will try to play you or gaslight you). I see the importance of learning your lover's language, because only then can you understand what their acts mean and truly appreciate them. No love language is the same, because every person is different.
However I think the most important thing is to truly love yourself, first. I don't agree with the notion that you "can't love someone else if you don't love yourself first" because I believe who you love is not something you control. However, I do believe that loving yourself is important because you learn how to love someone else, as well as how you want to be treated by someone else. For instance, if you've never been supportive of yourself, it might be hard for you to be supportive to someone else. If you're always hard on yourself, you may try to pass that onto your partner and treat them with unnecessary harshness.
I'm working on becoming a better lover by understanding myself more and treating myself the way I deserve to be treated..